For When You Feel Like Job

“Have you considered my servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, who fears God and turns away from evil?”
Job 1:8

It was back.

The sound of wind blowing in my ear. No, I wasn’t driving in the car, windows down. I wasn’t at the beach. I was at home and the sound was eerily familiar.

If you read my post Worship in the Waiting just two weeks ago, I told of an experience I had of loosing the hearing in my ear. I took treatment and, thankfully, I recovered (that wasn’t included in the post). Yes, God healed me. For more than a year and a half, I had no issues.

Until five days ago.

To me, this is more than coincidence or even irony – to write an article about something from 18 months prior only to have it recur less than two weeks later.

Initially, I was confused. And a little scared. Why was this happening again? Remembering the peace I experienced the first time, I’d calm down, knowing God was in control.

But what if it didn’t go away this time?

God knew what He was doing.

My thoughts played ping pong the rest of the day, back and forth from the fear of the flesh to the peace of God. If God was in control, He must be allowing this to happen to me.

I couldn’t help but think of Job and the permission God gave Satan to take away his family, housing, and livestock in one fell swoop. God gave permission. Satan had the power to do nothing more than God allowed him to do.

I imagined Satan reading my blog post and going to God, saying, “She wrote that post only because You healed her. Let it happen again and see how she reacts.”

“Go ahead, Satan.”

Have you ever felt like that? Like Satan is just out to get you? He wants nothing more than to ruin your faith in the One who is most worthy of our trust? Perhaps one difficult situation is followed by another and you can’t seem to catch a break.

Job 1:8 says God was actually the One who suggested Job to Satan.

“Have you considered my servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, who fears God and turns away from evil?”

He knew Job’s dedication to the Lord and that no tragedy would alter his faith. Nothing Satan tortures Job with caused him to curse God – even in the uncertainty, the questioning, and the immense loss he experienced.

Job’s suffering provides encouragement when we face difficulties. I believe God gives us the same opportunity as Job to remain rooted in the confidence that He is with us, has everything under control, and knows the outcome. He can be trusted in the most devastating circumstances regardless of our understanding.

I take comfort in know the challenges and trials of life are not accidents nor happenstance. The Author of Life allows them to be woven in and out of the story He has written, developing character among His people along the way.

It has not been easy going through this again, but I will say my faith has been strengthened because of it. Knowing God allowed my hearing loss does not change His sovereignty nor His affections for me. I’m pray for recovery again, but will choose to worship in the waiting.

Lord, thank you for the trials of life that bring us closer to You, deepening our faith and trust in You. May we seek You for comfort and peace. Amen

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